what’s the deal?
I knew that something was up with me when the other night one of my employees came to me after her shift and said, “I couldn’t help but notice that you seem really sad. Is everything okay?”
I was caught off guard – I hadn’t really noticed that I wasn’t feeling myself, which when you de-construct that statement, makes no sense at all. In that moment, I played it off as, “oh, I’m just tired.” but on my way home that night I was hung up on the moment and realized that yeah, I’m feeling a little down lately.
And I don’t know why!
What’s the deal with that!?
I’m not overly emotional, or suicidal or anything like that, so please don’t be concerned. But I am feeling a bit of a funk. I’ve been sleeping a lot and have felt overly tired. I haven’t had a lot of energy lately. My appetite is actually out of control – so, is this emotional eating? But it’s not constant…I had a lovely afternoon and evening with my husband yesterday and felt great. But after sleeping nearly 10 hours last night and getting up this morning, I’m just not the complete version of myself.
So, I’m thinking that this really is a reflection of what I felt at my yoga class. That I am experience this sense of lacking balance – both physically and mentally. But once balance is gone, it’s tough to get it back. What’s the deal with that?!
leslie said,
July 21, 2008 at 6:23 am
hey there! I often get like that. Actually, I used to get like that all the time when I was working at the office. Just angry and depressed with this sensation that I was trapped. I napped all the time, but still felt so down. I was not fun to be around
But then I quit my job and I think I’ve only been like that once or twice in almost ten months.
I hope you’re feeling better and figuring out that balance you are looking for.